Happy Thoughts

Today is the very first day that Josh is away. We are now officially having a long distance relationship. I know in the coming months, it would get harder. Ozzy was looking for his daddy earlier and it broke my heart. No, I did not cry but I felt the reality of the situation. 9 months is not really a long time considering some would endure a much longer working situation, but still its the same distance. The same emptiness when I glance around the bed and he's not beside me.

I could not sleep last night, I woke up at 3AM with an empty bed beside me. I could not sleep again so as a result, I tweaked this blog and updated some links. That's what I'm gonna do! I'll keep myself busy. I'll re-learn how to drive. I'll spend more time with Ozzy. I'll do whatever it takes so I'll be OK.

I realized, I can be a non-emotional person. If I will myself not to cry, I won't. It's easy you just have to not think about it. Happy thoughts...that's my motto.


Ciao!

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Awards TO ALL:

Awards!!!

Thanks Sheng!

Giving this loving award and friendship award to my online mommy bloggers! I never knew I'd meet such dynamic, intelligent and interesting individuals. The internet and technology is so amazing!

P.S. It's 230AM and I am still blogging. Can't Sleep. I admit it. I am starting to miss him.

Ciao!

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Spreading Creativity

"All true artists, whether they know it or not, create from a place of no-mind, from inner stillness."

::: Eckhart Tolle :::

{ created by Cathy, please don’t delete the graphics or alter it }

1. Copy the graphics designed by Cathy and then tell us your story about how you came to start designing. It doesn’t matter if it’s “for your eyes only” or you are designing for somebody.
2. Come back here and leave your link where you posted the story. I will add your blogs to the master list. If you have more than 1 blog you need to post the tag to your other blogs as well.
3. Passed it to people you know who makes beautiful crafts.
4. Make sure that you come back here to get the updated list of bloggers who joined the tag. This is a good way to increase our rankings on Technorati at the same time we get to read great stories.
So let’s start spreading those creativity.
1. Anything and Everything in Between
2. Designs By Vhiel
3. Vhiel's Corner
4. Can of Thoughts
5. Digital Scrapbooking Creations
6. Me and My World
7. Big Money List
8. Simple Life, Simply Me
9. Digital Life Scraps
10. The Livy Updater
11. Pinay Mommy Online
12. Blessings and Beyond
13. The Artist in Mitch
14. Just My Scrap
15. Enchanted Play
16. Nita's Random Thoughts
17. Nita's Corner
18. Thomas Travel Tales
19. My BIG Picture
20. Images of Aloha
21. Quicker8
22. Because Life is Fun
23. Digiscraptology
24. Pixel Dust
25. Jenny Said So
26. Fun, Fierce, Fabulous
27. Know Me Better
28. Creative in Me
29. Me and Mine
30. Kidd Designs

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I can only ask Thea why she gave me this award when clearly, I am no artist. Unlike her, I don't scrap, I don't make wonderful colorful themes from scratch, I don't even know how to use Photoshop. But I do express my creativity through my writing and at times, when I was younger, I also went into scrap booking.

This all started when I became a mom. My inner creativity was unleashed. Teehee

Thanks Thei, for thinking of me.

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Longest Breakfast List

Em tagged me!

Let’s learn what blogger’s favourite meal (Breakfast) is. Simple straightforward meme and great for link love. Have a good Breaky!

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The Longest Breakfast Menu List
Everyone likes to start their day with a comfort food for breakfast. What kind of food do you take? This would be a good way to find out your blogger friend’s favourite food for breakfast.

All you need to do is to put your name down, the country you are in and your favorite breakfast meal. Let’s see how we can have this breakfast ‘menu’ travelled all around cyberspace and learn what each blogger living in different country and what they eat for breakfast. This meme was created by a little lady with a penchant to spy around little baskets while marketing. Her favorite breakfast of the day is none other than Roti Prata, an indian flat bread. What about you? What is your favorite breakfast meal of the day?

1. Spymama, Singapore - Roti Prata 2. Janeth Vicy’s Life Journey, Philippines - Ham and Hotdog with Rice 3.As The World Turns, Philippines, Milk and Biscuits. 4.Just Me.. Eds, Philippines- Sausage and Egg with Garlic Rice/Fried Mash potato 5. Alpha, Philippines ~ McDonald’s Big Breakfast 6. Aggie, Philippines ~ Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich 7. KATHYCOT, Phils, Fried Spam, Chicken and Scrambled Egg paired with Fried Rice 8. Emillie, USA, Post Cereals, Fruits and Non-Fat Milk 9.Vannie,Phils, Bacon&Coffee 10 . NAME, COUNTRY, FOOD

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Vannie’s fave: Bacon,Coffee&Eggs

I am tagging Arlene, Joy, Van and Dez

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Ozzy Updates 23-Months

It's been awhile since I've posted something about 'lil Ozzy. He's turning 2 in 4 days. Imagine that, my big bulging tummy is still fresh from my mind and I can't imagine 2 years went by so fast. Well, it really did go by too fast. My baby is now officially a toddler.

A little monster who loves to climb, break, tear, spill, throw and yell. But I love my little monster. Even if he bites me sometimes when he's nursing. Even though I never have time for myself anymore. Even though I am not allowed to be selfish anymore. Even though I'll never have my body back. Even though our room will never be as tidy as before. All these things are nothing compared to the joy he brought us and to our family.

For his actual birthday that will fall on a Monday, 14th of July, we will have a little party here at home with close family & some friends if they can. The big dinner with all the ninong & ninangs will just have to wait. We have decided to combine Chi's despidida dinner with Ozzy's birthday dinner to save on the cost.

By the way, hubby's 90% sure of leaving by July 30th....it still has not sunk in yet - the long distance part - I dunno, people keep asking me if its OK with me that's he's far & I feel guilty when I say Yes, it's perfectly fine. Make me feel like a lousy wife, but truth is 9 months is not so bad considering the savings we'll have. Besides, Ozzy is here. I'll be fine. We'll be fine. I hope I can say the same with Josh though.

Initially a Jollibee kiddie party was planned but he's too young to enjoy that. So we'll buy him a nice gift instead. We were thinking of giving him a nice new aquarium with colorful fishes & turtles.

His vocabulary is expanding everyday!

• he got counting to 10 perfectly now.


• he enjoys dancing with barney in "if you're happy & know it" jungle.


• he can construct sentences like, "mommy gee, dede peez" or "ic-ac one peez" or "mommy, daddy, bah-bye"


• he still loves tic tacs. We use it to bribe him and it works like magic.


• he still likes wearing grown up shoes and refuses to wear his.


• he understands when were dressed up and going out and if he's not going out with us he cries like crazy.


• he sleeps on his own at night but he still nurses (but I talked to the doctor and extended breastfeeding is perfectly A-ok!)

That's it for now. Gotta go back to working. Later!

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Nobody Told Me...

…that I’d be changed forever.

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.

I was sorting out old photos of myself when I was still single and although I look more or less the same with long hair and darker skin tone I feel like a totally different person.

The day after I had Joshua, the fact that I was already a mom has not really sunk in yet. It was like there’s me Van & there’s someone else - a mom; except that’s still me. Confusing?

After some time those two entities merged & it became a different person. Mommy Van. Nobody prepared me for that mind altering fact. I’ve become a new person. A new outlook in life, a different mind-set and set new priorities. It feels as if my heart is outside of my body and every move my baby makes is a milestone. When I decide, I always think of the baby’s welfare first before my own.

Any mother would agree.

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Now, everybody is telling me to STOP breastfeeding my 23-month old son. I want to really, but he kisses me & says a-poo (love you) when he wants to be nursed. Tell me, can you say no to that?

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